CHAPTER 38

CHAPTER 38

Everyone says that sins can haunt you for your life and when your sin haunts you back it takes with it everything you cherish. Sin is not only about being wrong or hurting someone. It is about the pain that sin has caused someone and the tear they had shed because of the wrong done to them. Its cosmic justice to pay for the pain you have caused someone. Pain is something that eats you up slowly. Being wrong is not a sin. Sin is something that crushes a person beyond repair that leaves them alive but they are as good as dead. Sin is when you break the trust of someone who believed in you, who love you, stood by you always and accepted you for who you are. Sins are like your shadow even if you can’t see it, still it laches to you till you repent it. But sometimes it’s late to repent as you have taken a lot of time to realize and the time you took to realize had changed the circumstance and now you efforts will never yield as you never saw the effort of the one you sinned.

Samar looked at his son who looked happy after a long time and he knew why as he had heard from Nirvan that La had reacted and he knew what she meant to his son. She was the family for him that even when they shared the blood they could never share the bond. She was his soul and they were each other’s family. They both stood by each other when they were shattered and their bond was strongest as they both had bonded by their pain. He was happy for his son. His eyes misted as he thought that he was never had been the reason for his happiness but he had given him a lot of reason to loath him and hate him for life.

He had never realized how selfish he had been all his life. He had only thought about his pain and suffering but he had turned a blind eye to his son’s turmoil’s. He was so grieved by his wife’s betrayal that he forgot that his son had suffered along with him and maybe more than him as both his parents were to self-centred to see that he was slowly closing and shelling up his every emotion and in future it will be too hard to reach him.

He had ignored his ten years old son for three years after his wife’s truth was out and they got separated. He had himself agreed to take his son’s custody but was he a worthy parents and if he is true he is the worst one. Later when he had gathered himself again still he was least bothered about his son and his grieving eyes that long for his attention. But now he knew the extent of pain he had given his son as he now knew how it feel to long for someone who was so close still so far. He longingly looked at his son. He was blessed with a blessing to have his child but he was too self-obsessed to care for him. He was blessed to have a child while there were people who craved and begged to have a child of their own.

Arnav felt happy after a long time. His soul felt a spark of life and happiness, which had always been a rare entity in his life. The only happiness that stayed with him was her. He still remembers how she would annoy him.

Flashback

Arnav was busy in his school work and completed it so he can escape this shitty reality of his life. His Nani had thought that he should stay close to the family. All he did was snot at what family she was talking about the one that was an illusion. He had found his solos in his joints that made him forget everyone and blurs the constant ache in his heart. He knew his Nani was worried for him but he was long gone and now all he waits for his body to perish.

He was again lost in his joints when he heard his room door bang and the pest that had been nagging him for past few months.  He had heard his Nani say that she was also a cause of a damaged family like him and neither of her parents wanted her. He could also see pain in her eyes but he had learned it hard way that everyone has to bear their pain on their own as no one can understand what hell you are going through.

He ignored her like he always did but still she sat next to him and started doing her work like always. She would cough every now and then with the smoke of his joint yet she never complained or said him to put it out. He would look at her working and when she would be done she would close her books and walk out and then come back with snacks and juice for them both and keep it next to him and he would silently eat it, while she will have her with a smile on her face.

Arnav never understood how she can smile even when both their life was a shit as they both were unwanted by the people who were responsible to bring them in this world. But he was also intrigued by her as even when he gave her a cold shoulder for more than eight month stills he would come here and sit with him even if he insulted her and throws mean word at her she never cared as if she never heard his mean, insulting and cutting words.

Today in his hazed stated he looked at her and asked why do you, keep coming her when I’m least interested in your ugly face.

La smiled at him and said I like spending time with you so even if you don’t like me I like you and I will hold on to you.

Arnav looked at her and said what you will gain holding on to something that is already ruined and destroyed.

She smiled at him and said we may be battered and bruised but still alive and I believe we have equal right to live with happiness and I guess this silence of our is more soothing than the noise that keeps on chocking us with the painful truth that haunts us. I find my peace with you and it helps me keep my demons locked when I’m around you.

She smiled but he knew it was not the one that showed her happiness as who better than him can relate to it. She looked at him with her hooded eyes but still a smile on her lips and said you don’t judge me for my clipped wings and neither do you blame me for the wrong of my life. You have said mean words to me but never hurt me as the words that hurt me are something you never touch and for me it’s your way to care and I never had been cared for by anyone.

Arnav just looked at her in shock and said acceptance is hard for the society that sees things with its tinted glasses and categories things in their right and wrong criteria. You can come her and sit but if you expect me to sooth you and hug you than you are wrong as I don’t let anyone enter my comfort zone.

La looked at him with a smile that was one of content and said I want anything you offer you are my only true friend and I accept you as you are even if you greet me with silence most of the time all I care is that you are present in my life.

That day a bond was formed stronger than anyone could understand where La shared everything about her life with Arnav while he listen to her without any reaction from him. They were each other’s family and Arnav was protective for her even if she speaks less but she knew they can count on each other to stand by each other forever.

Flashback Ends

ASR still was grateful for her to not give up on him and keep pushing him to accept her. She was the only light in his dark life that keep haunting him. Today she had reacted to khushi and that had bought the hope in him to see her all well and nag him with her crazy antics.

He looked at khushi and said khushi you will spent you time with La from now on and I hope you will be a good girl. Everyone on the table looked at him except khushi who was stuffing her mouth with food only nodded her head as today HP had made all her favourites so she was busy making love to her first love. ASR just shook his head and said khushi you will chock eat slow the food won’t run away, stop behaving like a predator. Khushi still was stuck with her food least bothered to look at ASR. Samar and Nirvan tried to supress their chucked by keeping their face down and smiled at her cute antics.

ASR looked at her and she was still lost in her food he shook his head and said after you are done come to room and he left the dining table. The moment he left the room Nirvan looked at khushi and said you love food. But khushi was still with her mouthful and just nodded her head. Nirvana chuckled and said we can talk after you are done eating.

After few minutes khushi was done eating and she looked at Nirvan and said yes I love food it’s my first love. Khushi looked at him and said you are Lavanya ji’s husband. He just said yes and you can call her La as she likes herself being called La. Khushi looked at him with fear but anyway asked, is she sick from a long time. Nirvan looked at her and said she is in coma for past four years. Khushi felt bad for him and also for Arnavji. She said Arnavji loves her a lot. Nirvana looked at her with shock and said you don’t feel jealous that he loves her a lot. Khushi looked at him and said why would I, even I love my family the most. My father use to say family is not the one that is connected with blood but the one your heart can connect to.

Niravn and Samar suck a deep breath hearing her words, even being so young she understood that was so hard for them to understand. Nirvan looked at her and said young lady how old are you. Khushi giggled at his question and said young lady is seventeen years old. If he was shocked would be an understatement. He looked at her and then asked so why did you marry ASR, aren’t you too young. Both Samar and Nirvan waited for her reply but khushi looked at them and said I should go Arnavji must be waiting for me. Samar and Nirvan knew that she was not supposed to answer that question and they knew if ASR found out she said them anything it will be bad for her and so they didn’t push her and just said good night to her and saw her leave the dining table.

Samar looked at him and said I knew she was young but not this young what was Arnav thinking when he married her and it’s not even legal. Nirvana looked at him and said have you ever known what he feels or thinks. He is an unpredictable mysterious man and none of us can ever understand him not even La as he is too closed to let anyone in and you know who is to be blamed for it. Samar just looked down he knew he was responsible to turn his son into the beast he today is and this guilt keeps on eating him every second of his life but he knew he will never be free from this suffering.

Khushi was walking toward her room but the question Nirvan asked kept repeating on her head. She knew how they got married it was not her choice but she knew that sometimes you don’t tell anyone what is going on between you and your partner, even if she had not chosen it but she believed in the sanity of the relationship they share. Her parents had always said that every relationship has its own way and it’s never wise to include a third person between any couple, as it’s their own personal matter.

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As soon as she entered her room she was pulled and soon as her lips were attacked. She knew if she pushed him he will be wild and today his lips were kissing her with tenderness and so she slowly kissed him back and soon she felt his hands were on her back opening the zip of her dress and let her lips go as and looked at her as he slowly removed her dress making her blush as he sensually touched her while removing her dress making her skin turn red in shyness.

ASR looked at her and said you are looking like a ripe cherry and I’m gone devoid this cherry the entire night. He looked at her black lacy brasserie and panty. He touched the strap of her bra and slowly and leisurely touched it making her turn redder and suddenly pulled the bra making her globes spill out of the bra and his hand starting to groping her breast with both his hand and massaging it wildly and making her moan his name Arnav ji. He smirked at her and suddenly stopped and turned her around making her grunt in disapproval. He leaned on her back and with his teeth opened her brasserie button and harshly took it out of her body. He made her keep her hand on the wall and then said her don’t move your hand from the wall and then moved his hand on her spine making goose bumps appear on her whole body. His hand stopped on her lower back and soon his hand were playing with the waist band of her panties and within a blink of an eye a rip sound was heard and she gasped as she knew he tore her panties and heard him chuckle a bit.

ASR looked at her body that had turned redder and she was shivering and it gave him a power over her and soon his hand was on her femininity and heard her suck a deep breath. He touched her vaginal lips and a small smile lit up on her face and he sensually kept on touching her. He bend a bit and licked her ear lobes and said so wet baby and it pleases me that you are this wet for me and soon his one finger was in her making her shriek as it took her time to adjust to the intrusion and when she felt him move his hand in and out making her moan his name in pleasure. ASR smirked at her reaction and soon his two more finger entered her making her shriek in pain as her virgin body was new to this intrusion but it didn’t make ASR stop he kept on thrusting his fingers in her and soon her body adjusted to it and khushi started to move her hip to meet him but ASR held her captive and said don’t move. Within few minutes she was about to come when suddenly ASR stopped making her grunt in disappointment.

ASR licked his finger clean and said you taste yummy baby and suddenly lifted her up and moved toward the bed and make her lay on the bed her front was touching the mattress. Khushi tilted her hooded eyes to him when she felt him move back after laying her down and she saw him removing his clothes. She turned her face as it made her feel shy to look at him when he undresses. ASR looked at her turning her face and said look at me, when he saw her not moving he said in a stern voice either you look at me and enjoy the view or you pay the price for defying me. Khushi heard his voice and knew he will do what he says so she turned her face back to him and saw removing the belt from his pant and opening his pant button and pulling the zipper down and soon his pants along with his boxer were down and khushi gasped seeing his manhood standing hard.

ASR saw her reaction and smirked at her and said tonight you will just follow what I say without any question, I hope you know who is the boss in this relationship and saw her gulp with fear and excitement. He moved toward the bed and said on you four and move to the edge of the bed where I’m standing. Khushi did as she was said and soon she felt his hard member touching her femininity.

As soon as khushi moved toward the edge of the bed on her four where ASR was standing he made sure that his manhood was touching her femininity and then held her hips and started to move his member on her femininity and soon both were moaning in pleasure and when he felt they both will come he stopped and he encircled her waist and flipped her making her lay back on the bed and got on top of her and again started to rub his member on her femininity, he teased her entire night not letting her come making khushi beg for her release and asking him to let her come making him smirk but then he started to kiss all over her body leaving his mark on her.

Khushi was so high on pleasure she was only moaning his name throughout. Slowly he moved to her femininity and his lips were kissing her vaginal lips making her hips jerk. ASR held her hips tight and started to suck her vaginal lips while his thumbs massaged her clitoris making her moan with wildness. Soon ASR stopped sucking her and his three finger at once entered her making khushi sigh in pleasure and this time he was moving with a roughness and then his lips were on her clitoris sucking her heightening her pleasure. Within few strokes khushi came violently on his finger and but ASR didn’t stop and continued to finger her making her second time with much more pleasure all she did was scream his name.

While she was still clenching around his finger ASR pulled out and soon he started to rub his hardness on her femininity with vengeance and soon they both came together with ASR wetting her with his cum. He laid on her holding her close to him and said I want to dig deep in you stretching you to extreme filling you with my seed. Just few more day and then I will have all of you making khushi shiver with the madness in his eyes but soon tiredness took over her and both slept cocooning each other with their naked body.

TO BE CONT.......